Hello everyone, it's been quite a while since my last post (as usual) and the reason is because i have to do my exams from july til august. And they were really killing me, everyday i've to go to library and study, not so cool, right?
Anyway, i'm now in france, trying to learn french, and i've met a lot of new people, and fortunately they're really nice :) they love partying and meeting new people.
Okay off to main topic, this time it's about hatred, i found out just now that i'm a creature full of hatred. Because just now i've just made a thought bout it, and when i look back to my past, all i could say is, it's hatred that makes me develop into who i am now.
Have you guys ever heard that hatred makes one stronger? It's cliché actually, but somehow, i believe in that theory. I mean, everything that i've done, i did it just because of hatred to certain people, i think if i work hard enough, i know i could be just as good as them. It becomes like kinda motivation to me. Actually, yesterday some friends of mine said that it's not always good to compare yourself to other, they meant, it's better for me if i could just be myself. But the main problem is that, that they havent known me long enough. And of course they didnt know my weaknesses.
One of my biggest weakness is that i can be easily satisfied. I mean, if i dont have anyone to compare myself to, i'd just stop doing something halfway through. Yeap that's right, most of the time i didnt finish what i did, i took something up, and i'd stop doing it when i get bored, and i'm easily bored. That's messed up, dont you think?
And just because of that reason i need some kind of role model for myself. And somehow i often 'hate' my role model. Due to the fact that she/he can do something better than me. And i know it that i can't be the best in everything, but i mean i'm still young, and i dunno what kind of potential or talent that's hidden within me. And it wont hurt to try doing everything, right? But according to my experience, that hatred that i concealed within me made me stronger in some way. What do you guys think bout it? Gimme some of your thoughts please, it'd be always nice to hear some thoughts, you know? Okay i'm signing out right now, because i look like a geek here with some device on my thigh. So people, have a nice tuesday, and stay awesome!
Ciaoo
