Mellow...melow...

Berhenti berharap

Aku tak percaya lagi
Dengan apa yang kau beri
Aku terdampar disini
Tersudut menunggu mati

Aku tak percaya lagi
Akan guna matahari
Yang dulu mampu terangi
Sudut gelap hati ini

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampe nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat

Kenapa ada derita
Bila bahagia tercipta
Kenapa ada sang hitam
Bila putih menyenangkan
ha... ha...

Reff :

Aku pulang....
Tanpa dendam....
Ku terima... kekalahanku...

Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam...
Kusalut kan .. kemenanganmu...
wow..

Kau ajarkan aku bahagia
Kau ajarkan aku derita
Kau tunjukkan aku bahagia
Kau tunjukkan aku derita
Kau berikan aku bahagia
Kau berikan aku derita..

[female vocal]
ha.. ha.. ha...

[duta]
Aku pulang....
Tanpa dendam....
Ku terima... kekalahanku...

[female vocal]
Rebahkan kalbumu
Lepaskan perlahan
Kau akan mengerti
Semua..

[duta]
Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat..

Semua tw kn lagu inii?
Gw dr kmrn pgn bgd bahas ni lagu, g tw knapa
Menurut gw lagu ini cocok bgd bwt org mellow, contohnya, klo ni lagu lo kasi k tmn lo yg bru putus, gw ykin dy jd pgn garuk2 aspal
Mnurut gw, yg bkin ini lagu sedih itu adalah helaan nafas d bridge ini lagu, tw kn yg mana yg gw mxd?
Dan kata2 yg dipake d ini lagu jg dalem bgd, ud kyk org desperate gtu.
N gw ykin lagu ini bisa bgd dpake pas renungan pas retreat gtu, yg pas bag nangis2 gtu.
Trs habis lagu ini diputer, diputer de lagu bunda-melly goeslaw, pasti de seengga-engganya ada 1 org yg nangis bombay.
Sebenernya, kita mesti nangis y klo lagi sesi "mellow" pas retreat gitu?
Klo mnurut gw, yg nangis itu cm org2 yg jago berfantasi, soalnya biasanya kan disuru ngebayangin apaaa gitu pas lagunya diputer, trs tau2 banyak yg meraung2 kyk baru lahir
Ngomong2, gw lg kangen bgd ni ma indo, gw Mw balik, nongkrong lg ma tmn2, jln2 k mall yg gedee ( ya, dsini jrg bgd ad mall yg gede ), trus mkn nasi padaaang, mkn sop kambiing, bawa mobil,.
TAPI, sayangnya keadaan blm mengijinkan :(
Gw masi mesti bkin fsp, trus apply k uni, Trs pindahan juga,, doakan saja semoga gw g lompat dari gedung matematika, kyk org korea ituu, gw ud cerita ttg tu org blm sii? Klo blm, next time gw critain dah,
Skrg gw mw masak dulu, laper oooiii
Bwt yg d indo, smangat y kuliah! Jgn srg galau2 :)

About this blog

Well, I gotta say something about this blog
Recently my posting is always mellow
But dunno why, I just remembered it and wanna share it, cause I think it's unique and not every people have experienced it
And why is it usually about love?
Because my love life has been so unique
Sometimes it's a sad story,
Sometimes it's just unbelievable
Sometimes it's cruel
So, many stories in this blog are about that
I wish y'all don't get bored with it ;)
For the readers in Indonesia, good morning!
I wish y'all have quality time in university
I'm signing out for a while, cause it's almost quarter past 4 in the morning here, in Berlin.
See yaa later!

y.o.u

I met u for the first time when I was 11, if I'm not mistaken.

you were a small girl, u sit on the chair, which is the nearest chair from the class door.

and then , few years later, I met u again, I was with my gf, and u were with my friend.

that was in lippo mall.

you have been so small, but that time u looked so perfect.

I mean, u were attractive

But I don't think, that I can get u

I mean, we didn't know each other so well, then how can I talk with you?

Moreover, u were such a quiet person before, and ur face was so still, it gave an impression, that u wanna talk.

And there's a bad thing, naemlich, I was ugly and fat :(

yeah, maybe my appearence nowadays isn't so different with the one before, but I believe, it's slightly better than before.

Okay, i'm too tired to type something in english probably, so from now on I'll type it in german, okay?

okay, ich hoffe, dass du die folgende saetze verstehen kannst.

aber, was ich sagen will, du bist jetzt sehr huebsch.

ich weiss net, wie es passieren kann, haste antwort dafuer?

Ausserdem, es ist schade, dass wir jetzt im unterschiedlichen land sind

deswegen koennen wir uns net treffen,

Es ist ja ein gross nachteil, wenn ich dich anmachen will

Weil ich net dabei sein kann, wenn du traurig waerst.

damit ich dir meine Liebe zeigen kann.

Und dann leider bin ich kein dichter, ich kann net ein maedchen anmachen nur mit woerter

Ich muss da sein, damit ich mein Gefuehl ausdrucken kann.

Warum muss dies jetzt passieren? ich meine, wie so es passiert, nachdem ich in deutschland gelandet bin. wenn ich eine freundin, wie du haettest, waere ich net nach deutschland geflogen.

aber wenn es die schicksal ist, dass wir jetzt treffen sollen.

dann wuerde ich mein bestes geben.

ich verspreche..

deshalb, bleib mal kuerz in den naehe von mir..

nur fuer kuerz.

ich bitte dich,....

Fuer wen diese Postsendung? Fuer DICH!

My 'friend'

Today is the birthday of my friend, she's a woman right now
Today she would get 25 candles on her cake.
She played quite big role in my life
She's my first German teacher, I was taught by her
Once we were so close, and I started to know her better and better
Until one day she found the one, yeah she found the man of her dream
Our friendship is quite unique, it is not like other.
And I hope we'll be friends till the end
Now u are 25, I really can't believe how fast the time ticks.
It feels just like yesterday, when we met fo the first time., but it was 3 years ago.

Okay, last but not least, I wish her all the best for her study and her love life, cause that two things are important, don't they?
And thank u for everything u've done for me
I love u always, my friend

'we are on the same page'

Right now, I take a look about my past. I'm trying to remember something good, which happened when I was still in high school.
I come across a lot of old memory, some of them are sweet like an expensive sweet, and some of them are sour, not so good to be remembered. But after some consideration, I decide to write down one of the memory.
This memory is about my unforgettable relationship. Why is it unforgettable? It's because of the difference of age, she's 9 years older than me. And that's my personal record, I've never done better than that :p
It's unique, because that's the first time I'm dating a woman, not a girl. I felt so excited, but I dunno what happen next. Our relationship worked so good, we didn't argue so often, and our times were quality times, I dunno either, how it happened, but we have many similarities, and when we found our similarity, she said usually : "then we are on the same page". And it took not long for us to know that we loved each other. But what funny was, I was still in high school, and for us, we must shoot a girl, and if she says yes, she's yours. Shooting here means u must tell her that u love her and ask if she feels the same way too. But I dunno that with a woman it's not necessary, woman not a girl.
Our relationship wasn't long, it's just about 4 months. But this 4 months were printed in my heart.
There was a time, when we smile and laugh together
There was a time when I waited u for a day long, in front of the building. And I was always with my cigs and match, smoking while waiting for u.
There was a time, when sat beside me just to lay down your head and said today's work had been too much.
There was a time, when I came over to her house and met her parents
There was a time, when we cried together, because we knew that our relationship wouldn't work.
There was a time, when u showed me the real u, which is sweet and cute just like a child
I remembered that u dun like it if I forget ur name
I remembered that u love macaroni cheese from Singapore
We broke up because I flew to germany, and she was so sad, that she didn't go to airport to meet me before I left. She said if she went to the airport, she wouldn't let me leave her
And before I left indonesia, she gave me a letter, and she asked me to read it in plane. She wrote the letter with all her feeling, I could see the tears which fell down from her beautiful eyes. And I cried as well after finish reading the letter.
Right now, she's outta my life, she has changed her number and some said that she's already married.
I dunno where u are now, I dunno if u still remember me, but I just wanna say, u are the one, who I really loved. If I could I'd like to hear u saying : "we are on the same page" once more..

Lovin' u

Lovin u

Lovin' you is easy cause you're beautiful
Makin' love with you is all I wanna do
Lovin' you is more than just a dream come true
And everything that I do is out of lovin' you
La la la la la la la... do do do do do

No one else can make me feel
The colors that you bring
Stay with me while we grow old
And we will live each day in springtime
Cause lovin' you has made my life so beautiful
And every day my life is filled with lovin' you

Lovin' you I see your soul come shinin' through
And every time that we oooooh
I'm more in love with you
La la la la la la la... do do do do do

No one else can make me feel
The colors that you bring
Stay with me while we grow old
And we will live each day in springtime
Cause lovin' you is easy cuz your beautiful
And every day my life is filled with lovin' you

Lovin' you I see your soul come shinin' through
And every time that we oooooh
I'm more in love with you
La la la la la la la... do do do do do

This is the song from Minnie Ripperton,, why I post the lyric of this song? The answer is easy, because right now I'm falling for someone. And this girl really drives me crazy,, makes me do things, which I usually didn't do.
But the question is, does she feel the same? Only god knows..

Tong kosong nyaring bunyinyaa

Gw lg d klas math ni, Kita bru aj dpt hasil test yg kmren. Dan nilainya dibcain gtu sama gurunyaa, so pada tw dee, sapa yg bego
Dan anehnya pas pembahasan, yg sdang terjadi sekarang, org2 yg nilainya jlek bnyk bgd ngomongnye, yg nilainya bgs malah diem n tdur2an.
N buat ap mereka bnyk omg? Spaya terlihat PINTAR kaah? Sorry dude, but that won't help u at all, yes, that's right.. It will never help u. N.E.V.E.R