our world is really different, and we are also different. the easiest difference is that i'm a boy and she's a girl. we live in different continent, which means the timezone different is existed.
our way of life and our environment differ as well, i live a quite unorganized life, whereas she lives organized and busy life.
she likes doing stuff for organization, on the other hand i barely had experience working in organization. she doesn't like to be alone, i love individualism.
but the funny part is, we knew each other since we were child. Back then we didn't talk much, maybe because we had this one habit, we don't really talk that much.
As time went by, we turned into teenagers and went to our very own path. I met her once when she was still in high school. our meeting was accidentally, i was with my gf, and she was with her boyfriend-wannabe. that time, i could already see that she would grow up into a stunning girl.
and things went surprisingly well according to my guess. By the time she was 19, she had a lot of boys around her. and in that time i came to her, like a fucking loser. of course she ignored me, i knew it would happen. But i don't really give a shit bout it, because my heart has been torn apart by another girl. So i thought, i just wanna get to know her.
but at last i fell for her. Actually i knew i shouldn't fall for her. why? because she wasn't interested in me, foo shoo!
but then, i flew to indonesia, and we had chance to spend time together. and all i can say is, it's worth it. she's quite talkative, charming, and knows how to dress, she's just perfect.
the messed up part is, she had already a boyfriend that time. well, she has actually almost always a boyfriend.
and then, i flew to china to visit my elder brother. i spent like 9 days there and flew back to jakarta. by the time i got to the car, my cellphone rang, it's from her, she asked me to accompany her to a hotel. actually that's a chance to get her, but i let it slip away. I said i've just landed and was so tired. maybe things could be different if i took her that day.
ach ja, one more thing, she really hate it to regret things, but i love to regret things.
so, till this very second, i've been single for like 1,5 years. and all that time, i've been trying to get close to her. but still, no positive results. Sometimes when i wanna stop with it, i'm afraid that i'm already close to the finish line.
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